Our Placement Story

Both of our hearts were breaking. My heart was breaking for my friend-- what heartache and sorrow she would go through, the grief she had over "giving up" being a mother to this perfect little girl. We just looked at each other for what seemed like a long time but was probably less than a minute.

She was stronger than I was in that moment. I stood there with my arms crossed. I could not take that baby away from her arms. She looked at me, and back down at her baby and back at me, almost as if saying, "Take her." I didn't move. She stepped forward and put her in my arms.

When she placed her in my arms I reached out to hug her and we hugged for a while. I told her I loved her. I'm not sure how I was still standing. I was physically and emotionally drained.

I know that she and I will be forever bonded through our daughter. She chose me to be her daughter's mother. It isn't something I take lightly and never will.

In that moment after our birth parents left and we sat down and looked at our daughter, I could not even comprehend what had just happened. It was completely surreal. I wouldn't completely feel like this little girl's mother for a several weeks after placement. It takes time to heal and to continue to heal. Having an amazing relationship with our birth mother will help in that healing process for both of us.

A while after our birth parents left, I was blessed by my Father above with a sense of calm and love. I was able to hold this perfect baby girl and see the beauty that comes from adoption-- this child that is wanted and hoped for, that is loved and sacrificed for, by all of her parents.

Placement day is only the beginning of so many things. There will be so many trials, hardships, and pain to come, but there will also be love, hope, and many experiences that will make you a stronger, better person.